This is my school story.

I had friends, but I always felt different to them.

My teachers told me I talked to much, that I needed to try harder and that I was not living up to my potential (whatever that means).

When I was 12, I was taken out of my class and away from friends and put in a disruptive class  as a “good influence” becuase I got on with people. It made me feel even more different.

I liked writing stories in English, but found it hard because of my spelling and handwritting. 
My ‘Best Work’ was often mistaken for a draft.  

I discovered a love of Drama and it became my strongest subject – I was in multiple plays and encouraged to continue to A-Level. But I told myself that I would never get a job as an actress so what was the point. I should do something sensible. Looking back this is crazy – Drama was my first love (and writing was my second).

I wrote an article in my school magazine about Stereotypes and Conformity and how toxic it was – it was aimed at the principle and the way the school run. He gave me a commendation for it – I was not impressed.

I started a ‘business’ when I was 14, putting on gigs in my local area. It was successful – each time (four in total) I made a small profit and paid the bands. No one suggested I study the subject.

If the teacher was good I would excel in the class – Year 10 Chemistry finished with encouragement that I should take an A-Level. 
My teacher changed in Year 11 and I didn’t even pass.

My brain was busy.

The void between who I was and my “potential” became a cavern.  

I developed school anxiety and started missing days,  when I went it, I didn’t go in until after assembly (because I thought assembly was pointless and didn’t like sitting on the floor with lots of people).  

Four months before my GCSE’s my English teacher told me I was dyslexic – not that I hadn’t been trying hard enough, as I had been told my whole life.  Or not good enough as I had told myself. 

At the same time my best mate who was older than me taught me maths in a weekend.  Something years of school teachers had failed to do. I went from struggling in the middle set to studying maths at A Level.

I found my place at college – after starting A-Levels, I left and worked for six months, then returned to do a BTEC in Business.  I fell into it for a random reason and it ended up being the best thing ever.  For the first time in my education I felt like I fitted in and that I had skills and talent.

It worked because it was a “doing” course and assignments related to actual situations. I could incorporate my storytelling and drama skills – writing financial reports were easy if I pretended I was running an actual business.

It took until I was 41 to realise I had an ADHD brain and to get diagnosed. 
During the time inbetween, I had a lot of different jobs and some unfinished degrees behind me.  

My father was abusive, I was a young carer and we lived on a very low income. These things were not recognised – because I was chatty and eloquent. When I started missing school, no one checked in on me and if they did, they never made a connection with me because I remember feeling like as I had “stopped playing the game” they were not interested anymore.

What school taught me: I was broken, I was different, I wasn’t good enough, I was inconsistent, I didn’t try hard enough, I was not realising my potential, that people were unkind, that if the world was like school I would always feel lost.  That I was unwanted.

What it didn’t teach me: That I had a gift for entrepreneurism, that I was a natural leader, that my writing and my empathy could change lives for the better and that I had a voice that people would listen to.  That I had the ability to turn my hand to anything that caught my interest.

What would have helped: